It Ain't Easy

There are days when my final goals seem unattainable - be able to run a 5K, wear the same size I did in high school (which, by the way, was not a 6. I generally think maintaining high school weight for women who do things like give birth is complete bull, but I was a pretty decent sized young woman so will be a decent sized not-so-young woman too). I want to be able to eliminate my back pain and have a core that actually supports me. Not out of this world goals, but getting there has never even been within reach, so I get frustrated when I'm not making steps of progress. Because, after all, why would I possibly succeed this time when I've been a failure all along?

Well, to combat this negative self-talk (good therapy word huh?) I am presenting:
Angie's Proof of How KickAss She Is:
1. I landed myself the world's greatest husband ;) (that's more about how kickass he is I guess)
2. I have one degree in a field I love.
3. I'm getting another degree in a field I love in about four months.
4. I am stronger, faster and have more endurance than I did a month ago.
5. I still have a helluva high kick.

So. I'm going to try remembering, more often, all the ways I already kick ass. And tell myself that this challenge of losing weight/getting strong/being healthy is yes, difficult and a long process, but not totally impossible. After all, it wasn't long ago I would have said that I'd never get a master's.

And I've still got that high kick.