This is it!

I have been thinking about the power of energy and thoughts, and how combined they can hold us back or help us accomplish anything.

I had a killer headached today but managed to take a 20-min. walk. I left the dogs at home since I wasn't feeling well and did't want to struggle with them. Ideally I could do a longer walk by myself then take them each on shorter walks or take them both for one. Bodie is so hard to control that it makes walking rather stressful. I watched Dog Whisperer tonight, though, and have identified some behaviorial issues to address. Now just need the tools to do that ... Really, we can do anything in life with the right tools.

My cousin moves to town on Sat. and I am hoping that we will be able to coordinate our schedules to work out some together. She has coordinated a Family Weight Loss Challenge, with the big goal of each of us losing 20 percent of our body weight. For me, that is 50 pounds. In six months. I am really looking forward to making this happen, to having the support and camaraderie of our family. It's a much better method than complaining and griping about being fat and our bad eating habits.

Tomorrow is my first day back to WW in a LONG time. My plan is to get up early, garage sale for a while, go to the meeting, return home to walk while Craig closes on his dad's condo, then get some errands done at Hobby Lobby. I work my first shift at Second Chance Home tomorrow night, and I'm rather nervous. It's been a long time since I worked at all, let alone direct support. And since I'm just relief I don't really have any say while I'm there. I'm hoping to just sit back and relax and get paid.

I have some job things cooking, but nothing is going to fall into place within a week. So, temping here I come. I'll probably do it through July then just try to find something else full time. I looked at the CO positions for the women's jail and I would SO not pass the physical test right now. I'm really quite surprised that there the same standards for cops apply to COs, but I imagine it's good to be in shape when a riot happens.

I am really over the YMCA. I have been dissatisfied there for awhile. I suggested dropping our membership, but Craig wants to get back into the swing of it. However, he did agree to check out Anytime Fitness, which is open 24-7 and just a couple blocks from here. Truthfully, I will go to any gym that will motivate us both to show up and do the work. I was a little sore from my core workout last night so I guess it must have done something. Either that or my muscles atrophied from staying in bed all day.

My life is certainly in flux - job searching, coming up on one year of marriage, my FIL moving here, and trying to change my body and mind to focus on healthy living. I'm giving myself permission to complain once a day, but no more than five minutes. We don't have enough time in this life to waste it whining.